Pretty Cancer.

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I’m trying to paint this today. Tricky but very pretty don’t you think?

Invasive Squamous Cell Carcinoma of the Cervix.

I have a funny feeling at the moment. I’m just sitting with it for now and will see where it goes.
Hearing the news that I was in Remission has been mad. I had just about got my head around the fact that I had cancer, and now I’ve been told that I haven’t.

It reminds me of a time at Uni when my tutor got me mixed up with someone else and told me I had failed an important exam. I hadn’t, it was someone else but it took a long time to believe he had made a mistake.

People around me keep saying ‘That must be fantastic news!!’ and I suppose it is.

Trouble is this. 6 weeks or so ago, I was living in ignorant bliss. I could walk my dog, drive my car, go to the shops, have a piss…you know all those kind of normal things we all take for granted.

I must sound so ungrateful, but I am sat here with a 10 inch wound across my tummy, unable to piss, can’t drive, already with a list of future appointments laid out ahead of me.

It’s not over yet.

This morning I shat myself, literally. Probably too much information but if you’re in for a penny you’re in for a pound!

So I’m in a bit of a pissy mood today. Yes I’m happy the cancer has gone, but I’d be happier if it had never been there in the first place.

Normal upbeat posts will resume shortly.

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2 thoughts on “Pretty Cancer.

  1. Hmmm – what to say to that missy? You be in that pissy mood and when you’re through, you can harness that spiky anger and take it out on unsuspecting every day tossers (there are lots of them…)
    in the meantime I recommend using marbling inks for your ‘pretty cancer’ then when it’s dry you can tear the fucker up – and start again should you wish. Love you Kx

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